had a small mock debate with my mom yesterday, when we were watching the program "The Big Fight" on TV... at the end of it, I realised that shez more than a mom to me... a friend. Mom, you are the best.

btw, therez this aunt of mine, and we always fight over current national issues.. one day, in my grandma's place, others were shocked by the way we argued, shouting at the top of our voices, violently! and shocked they were still more when we joked together, like close buddies, the very next moment:) 

i dread this whole sem, darkest days in my life, just waiting for the exams to get over.... i am afraid that i may have started to love being sad, something like a prisoner in search of his prison.... again, i have had many of these recuperation stunts.... but to no avail.... the fallout??? its simple... i am a burnout as a student.

Current mood: Very sad :(

P.S. The time when the representative calls on will be when my USP exam will be going on:)

----- Original Message -----
From: "TOEFL" <toefl@ets.org>
To: <monish@hotpop.com>
Sent: Thursday, July 25, 2002 11:54 PM
Subject: Re: Re: TOEFL


Thank you for contacting the TOEFL Program. A representative will 
contact
you at your contact address as this is considered as a attempt on your 
part
to fraud our organization by giving invalid card details and making 
wrong
claims. Since this is a case of mistrust your GRE results will be 
withheld
if our representative finds any fault on your side.
You should authenticate yourself by showing your passport or any other
identification with your photograph.
You should also give us a photocopy of the card you used for the 
transaction
process.
Failing which you will be disqualified to write any ETS examination.

Our correspondant from prometric might contact you on 31/7/2002 between
10:00 - 12:00

We hope it was a mistake from your side and the act of giving wrong 
card
details was not intentional.
For further clarifications you may contact PROMETRIC at
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19/07/2002

just happened to hear one of the funniest arguments, betn anjan and an old man over traffic rules... this Anjan (can use the choicest and juiciest expletives when time arises) chose to play it cool, the argument being very silly.... that added to the comic of the situation, infuriating the elderly man further:)

Shiva crippled!!!

18/07/2002

had this friendly scuffle with this great fren of mine shiva (former body builder... excellent cook and driver) couple of weeks ago.... chased him a bit.... he got himself hurt in the foot... i couldnt notice as he ran to his place.. thought it must be a minute scratch....

now i am getting news that hez hurt badly...... heard hez always cursing me these days....  heheheheh.... waiting to see him again... 

wrote poems Indefatigable me and  The thief,  these days....

have a look at the disgusting people of Gujarat and the stinking people in Delhi.... 
http://www.angelfire.com/hi/NGOBSC/communal_riots.html
http://indianterrorism.mybravenet.com/indianmuslimsindex.htm
The last time an incident like Gujarat riots happened (not in magnitude but in nature) was during Partition in 1947... but then there was no working democracy, no Constitution and importantly no mechanism to contain violence....

why have we become so bad..... i am not blaming the politicians... they are just the reflection of the society... sadly whats become of the ppl in Gujarat? (even 2% population with fundamentalist attitude is a huge percentage... unacceptable)

When i saw Narasimha Naidu (all time record in Telugu films), i simply couldnt help but stay on the high for that whole month..... the same happened with Samarasimha Reddy, Murari, etc, in recent times... Oh no, u should have seen how i behaved after i saw Dhalapathi (Rajni's film) long long time ago.... Thanks to India and her film industry, simple souls like me can be cheerful..... drawing vicary from the screen....

see our creation on the Net..... a small part of our Project-1 lab... Veto on Net .... the PHP code is Raghuram's....

i came across this article in Outlook. heres it. i always respect those who study well, especially those who do it under difficult circumstances.... knew many ppl like that when i was in AP. they were struggling even to buy books.... they not cared for old clothes... they not cared for thier poverty... but they all had this secret dream.... to get degree and Govt. job someday.... 

i remember this guy called Mani in Punganur..... last seen him was 11 years ago.... i learnt to play lagori (a very exciting game)  well from him..... i was his inspiration since i used to come first or second in the class ....Guntanakka [its her nick, i forgot her name.... may be Divya or Bhavya... always we were fighting and she was winning]-  a very nice girl, Madani - a soft but sweet guy, being the rivals..... okie, this Mani was forced to stop studies to help in his father's flower shop..... how he dreaded it.....

I had gone to Punganur 8 months ago, first time in some 11 years, just to see my old frens (while coming back from Tirupathi, i took a detour)..... met some, met not some... for Mani, strangers are living in his house now....  lost him altogether......just hope he is happy with his flowers...... somewhere.....

party in the lab!!!

10/07/2002

had project-1 lab today... our project being Veto which is Value Enhanced to Outlook express... an email client for Linux which has both GUI as well as command-line interface..... also an web-version which includes even some elementary spoofing!!!!(putting up all soon on the site)....Shailaja ma'am came to evaluate...... and it turned out to be a party in the lab!!!!!

and a poem:)

5/07/2002

wrote the poem Musings... 

a book

4/07/2002

felt a bit bored in the evening, so headed for the library..... finished reading "A tiger for Malgudi" by RK Narayan in one sitting..... 

thanks Jaswant

3/07/2002

how can some ppl be so determined???? and raghuram is one of them. me pretty opposite... arey bhai, life chalta hai. 

and my thanks to Jaswant Singh. according to me,  what he did as external affairs minister, think really ensured inflow of many crores of currency, if not now, atleast in near future. Think he is one whose actions as foreign minister till recently will influence India's economy in near future than the finance minister at that time..... and Shourie (read his observations on idiosyncrasies of Indian law), i thought u r gone, good to hear u r sticking around. plz do the things u actually wanted b4 next elections come too near....